Honestly?
broken.. like my heart’s close to shattered, and i’m letting myself fall
aching.. my heart is aching for someone that i don’t deserve. when i see him i wish my heart could just pour out and i could love him and he could love me and everything could be perfect.
confused and awful.. there’s a boy who likes me and then i remember that he’s my boyfriend and then i’m like what the fuck..
my thoughts are a jumble. my body doesn’t feel right. my head and arms and legs feel tired. today during school i felt as if i was about to pass out because of my feelings (and because i had a headache…)
and on top of that i feel fat. all the time. but right now it doesn’t even matter because my heart is hurting more than my mind. my mind just feels numb.
i honestly just don’t feel good, you know?
